You don’t have to scroll far on TikTok before stumbling across a pastel pink book featuring a sprig of lilies. Beloved by the #BookTok community, the 2016 novel “It Ends With Us” by Colleen Hoover has been number one on The New York Times paperback fiction bestseller list for 74 weeks straight.

With 1.1 million TikTok followers and 20 million books sold, Hoover has catapulted into fame and stayed on top, writes Alexandra Alter in a New York Times profile on the author this week. Alter chronicled Hoover’s rise from social worker earning $9 an hour and living in a trailer to bestselling author with six books dominating The Times’ top 10 bestselling fiction paperbacks.

But that doesn’t mean that Hoover feels secure in her success. She confided to Alter that she has “the worst case of imposter syndrome in the world.” 

“I read other people’s books, and I’m so envious. I’m thinking, ‘Oh my God, these are so much better, why are mine selling the way they are?’” she continued, attributing her success to her fanbase. She added, “It’s not me. The readers are controlling what is selling right now.”

What’s stunning about Hoover’s success, Alter points out, is the fact that many of her bestsellers were published years ago. While she already had an established fanbase, the popularity of TikTok during quarantine made Hoover one of the most talked about names among readers, many of whom were discovering her for the first time.

But Hoover should give herself more credit for her rise on bookshelves. Her feelings of inadequacy are common among high achievers, especially women and people of color.

The James Pattersons of the world escape imposter syndrome 

The feeling that you haven’t earned your success was first identified in 1978 by therapists Pauline Clance and Suzanne Imes. It’s easier to feel like an imposter when you don’t see anyone who looks like you or shares a similar background reaching the same level of acclaim, clinical psychologist Emily Hu told BBC. 

Research finds that women, especially those of color, are more likely to experience imposter syndrome in workplaces or environments that esteem values like “brilliance.”

“It’s much harder to come up with examples in popular culture of women, particularly women of color, who, like a Sherlock Holmes or a Dr. House, have that kind of special raw brilliance,” Sarah-Jane Leslie, a philosophy professor and co-author of the study, told Science.

It means that imposter syndrome isn’t as much as an individual problem as it is tied to a lack of representation, a sign of larger systematic issues. Ruchika Tulshyan and Jodi-Ann Burey write in the Harvard Business Review that “systemic racism, classism, xenophobia, and other biases” weren’t taken into consideration during the development of imposter syndrome as a concept. 

While she is a white woman, Hoover is writing within a sea of James Pattersons and other white men that have been dominating bestseller categories for centuries. Publishing is an especially non-diverse and white field, and Hoover’s genre—books by women written for women—have long been belittled or seen as not as worthy of critical praise. Research shows they’re often less read by men, too. 

Even though Hoover is an undeniable success story, it’s no surprise that she’s feeling a bit like a fish out of water—she’s working within a canon that has a long history of only upholding white male authors as geniuses. 

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